Lauren I responded to your message, but I don’t think it went through. -.-
It didn’t, what the freak is going on with tumblr man?! Get it together tumblr.
I basically just said, and I don’t care for other people seeing this…I just said that I can’t lose her. I can’t lose her like this. That I didn’t think this would EVER happen to us, especially her. I want to believe in the power of prayer, but knowing my luck this will be the worst case scenario and my world will come crashing down…if it hasn’t already. Every night she was at the hospital I hated leaving her….fearing that something would happen to her and that I just wanted her to come home and I didn’t want her to be there anymore and while she’s home now….I don’t want her to go back to that place….I don’t want her to have to go through chemo and radiation…she doesn’t deserve this Lauren…she doesn’t. She went to church on Sunday and sang in the choir and she rescues animals…that’s why we have 5 dogs…she cares for people…and this just isn’t fair. I’d much rather it be me.
I don't think the worst part about this was losing you. It was losing me.